Your psychological world as a person with anorexia is a fiercely controlled mini-universe that has come to feel absolutely essential to your psychological survival. As a vulnerable person you arrive at anorexia’s door feeling completely inadequate. You don’t know who you are or how you are supposed to take on the challenges that lie ahead in life. Anorexia offers a retreat from that forbidding world. But at the same time you believe your control and discipline will command the world’s admiration.
As anorexia progresses, you, the person with the disorder, become more and more obsessed with food and dieting. This obsession is part of creating that controlled mini-universe, a place you can always lose yourself in when real life challenges seem overwhelming. In the mini-universe, the terms of success are pretty much under your control, if you can just keep managing your hunger.