Leybel- Ika-apat na bahagi

Ipagpaumanhin ninyo ang aking panandaliang pagyakap at pag-gamit sa aking sariling wika. Ito’y marahil sa aking kawalan ng mga angkop na termino, nararapat at kaukulang mga salita na syang nagiging hadlang sa aking masalimuot na paghimay at pagsusuri ng paksa sa aking harapan. Muli, humihingi ako ng inyong pang-unawa.

Pagmamahal. Isang kataga na marahil ay hindi hinihingi ngunit naibibigay ng kahit nang sinong nilalang. Ang malayang pagbabahagi nito na may ka-angkop na sakripisyo ay higit na hinahangaan. Ang tunay at wagas na uri ng pagmamahal ay hindi kaylaman makikita, mababanaag o maisasalansan ayon sa uri, bagkus ito ay tangi lang mararamdaman. Ito ay sadyang kapos kung kulang sa naaayong tugon. Makapagbibigay lamang ito ng naka-ambang dusa kung ang pagmamahal ay hindi buo at ganap sa nais nitong ipahiwatig. Kaylan lamang ay nakahagip ako ng isang nagmamahalang nilalang. Masasabi ko mula sa isa sa kanilang tagapagsalita na ito’y natural, puro at sadyang dalisay na maging mga tula at awit ay ‘di pupuno sa taglay nitong kaayusan. Hindi marahil sapat ang maiksi ko’ng pagpalaot sa mundo ng pagmanahal, ngunit ang lakbay ko’y hindi pa tapos...

Ako ma’y mahibang, mawalan ng ulirat,

Sa puso ko’y tanging ikaw ang siyang saad

Kamatayan man, saki’y tumambad,

Diwa mo naman nakaukit sa ‘king palad

Basta’t tayong dal’wa,

Puso’t layunin iisa

‘di alintana sabi ng iba

Ano? Anong label, label pa?

Ang higit na mahalaga

Mahal mo ‘ko, mahal kita!

Label-Part III

For My Archangel....

Everything came so easy.
You're keeping me warm
Crashing down in,
You're making me smile.
I never felt so wanted,
You're taking me home.

Don't give back,
I miss you, I kiss you,
But nobody knows.

Too much to ask
Something between us
Sweet beginnings, sweet endings.
I'm your side
But I can't spell it out
Meet me halfway, I could be the same for you

-T3

It is quite simple though challenging, to keep an unlabelled love relationship going. The amount of selfless sacrifice counting to doing every possible thing just to make the idea of labelling drift among the fads of culture is immeasurable. The imaginary line that labels every love relationship vanishes with much affection and intimacy shown. Two souls liking each one’s company is enough reason to manifest pure and unblemished love. It exemplifies simplicity but the deepness of one’s affection still shouts. Existentially logical for everything exists in mind. The simple poem above tells how time and circumstances modifies a single life. Being in an unlabelled relationship and of course, being in love. 

Label-Part II

I feel that this is inevitable. Life would be all bland for one not to undergo this. You would die meaningless and of self-centeredness missing the peace and joy it brings. It is how I initially define relationships. For me, it is a transcendental vision of what we are. It is an extension of who and what we want to be. Piles of books have been presented; relationship tips, relationship know-how, building relationships, love and relationships, etc. But if we look closely, it all sums up in knowing yourself first. Benefitting from that intense relationship with yourself is absolutely the one most worthy of that love. Label that love relationship between you and yours alone. There is so much affection and understanding needed than emphasizing on society’s ‘label’ pressure. To love wholeheartedly in a relationship definitely needs no label. As my friend would put it, ‘’GOW’’. 

Label?

As I was about to take my medicines, I suddenly noticed its label. Those labels speak of what they are or what they stress of. My consciousness brought me to an endeared friend of mine whose belief in labelling one’s relationship is just a product of a modern inquisitive assuring society. Her acts and his, stands alone as labels. Labels that is more to than friendship, exceeds the effort of caring and dismantles the rules of affection. The act of giving yourself so that the other feels it and vice versa is a label in cloak. It maybe sillier to think but that’s how love affects our own unique lives. True love doesn’t need distinction or labels. Just what Christ taught us: love unconditionally. To end, I would like to share my friend’s endearing tagalong poem which demonstrates her unlabelled but heartfelt emotions for her man.

''laging nagkakaintindihan

laging nagkakaunawaan

laging masaya

basta't magkasama

ngit, halakhak, at tawa

kadalasan sa tuwina

hindi nagpapabaya

magkatuwang sa lahat ng problema

magkaibigan nga ba

o sadyang pinipigilan

ang damdaminng tunay

na dapat sa isat-isa ay ialay?

bow...’’

Label? Anyone?