Ignore

Call me insane, maybe a fool

To think I’ll use it as a toll

Words you always throw

Are mistaken as a go

Forgive me for being so stupid

For not knowing as I earlier did

Sudden reminder of the impossible

Slamed with reality that is probable

Spare me of just looking at you

Be at myself, sane too

To know you are there, I’m excused

Seeing you nowhere, that I refuse

Be with me please, at least for a while

Let my feelings for you compile

My shout for attention, evade

For you my emotions are easy to persuade

But deep in my heart, it will still be you

Embedded in my mind too

Overlook me and forever ignore

Blink at my existence and what I’m here for

That  I fell...ignore...

Thanks

Despite my lack of the required medals and distinctions of a writer, all I offer is my humble, sometimes mediocre state of mind. The events in my life will serve as my laurels and my psycho-philosophical mind hopes to drape me with sanity needed. I rely on faith to keep myself grounded as well as reminder of my being human always.

As all of us do, we want to make a difference, one way or the other. We have various levels of needs in life. Am just hoping that those aims could somehow affect others. Getting and savouring a goal of ours is a great prize when proper acknowledgement is made.

In my case, I would like to thank everyone who takes their time to read this blog of mine. Taking notice of something in a different perspective is an effort considered. Being moved, one way or another is an effort much higher. I really appreciate the same. I just wish that I could do more.

Reality check

Applying to what is said to be done to battle depression is like reaching a point through an endless tunnel. I being idle, traduced and damaged relied heavily on sole thing that was left clinging in my mind – faith. To believe in yourself and in everything you do in a situation like mine is considered a miracle. It is only faith that wakes me up each morning. It pushes me to stand, walk, laugh and cry just any normal human being. Last time I was watching a NatGeo documentary about bizarre personalities, those with Turrets, Trichotillomania, Necrolepsy and Autism presented in a more humane way and how the modern society perceives them. Seeing those was an eye-opener for me knowing what you can achieve under extreme circumstances. It gave me more hope, inspiration and a renewed faith under a gloomy sky. I saw a more concrete and profound goal in life.